My First Blog

So, since my life is so crazy, and I don't really have a diary anymore, I decided that I wanted to start a blog. I don't really have much to talk about right now, but I will update you on the most important things going on right now.
My mother has a condition where she cannot see out of one of her eyes, and when she can, it is like a kaleidoscope (kind of like the Beatles song "the girl with kaleidoscope eyes". I feel like she and my father know what it is (and maybe my sister too), and they are not telling me to keep me from being stressed out about it and what not. But not knowing is even worse, because I feel like I am more stressed about it not knowing, because there are a bunch of possibilities of what it could be, which is scary.
Other than that I have a guy who is either not there or looking for something that I won't give (duh! he's a guy!).
I am currently in college, at CSU Chico. Yes, the party school, but I have found a way to have fun without going out every single night. Its called hanging out with friends in room, going out to eat and, once in a while, a themed party (so worth all the drunk people).
Other than that, I am in band, and I am starting to enjoy being in a band again. Last year (senior year) I was in a band called YPSO, and it literally made me start hating to play music. It was just too formal and too demanding. Plus you had to be perfect in every sense, and I wasn't. I am just good at trombone, not great, like other people in the orchestra. It was too prestigious (if that exists). Maybe just too prestigious for me. So, I was glad when the season was over, and all I had to do was play for my band in school, which was basically over because I was a senior. I went out on a limb this year in college, and I decided to join the Jazz II Ensemble (since YPSO was Orchestral). But then I started not wanting to go to that. I thought it was just because it was at night (and I was used to playing Jazz in the morning). But then I found out I did not like the director (his teaching styles, or maybe the fact he was trying to teach, and not let us play). It was a great band; members of the community came to play with the band, and our tenor sax player! Oh my goodness! He is amazing! Then this semester I decided to do Jazz again, because there was going to be a new instructor (turned out it was one of the music education students, and he was teaching it as his final project). Tanor let us play, and experiment, and just enjoy ourselves. I did miss class once in a while, but I guess I can blame my guy, and wanting to hang out with him.
Other than that, I am about to finish my first year in college, and I will be signing up for my next courses next year. It is exciting, and happening so fast. I have to just get through the next 6 or so weeks, and then I am out for summer.
I have a place to live next year. I am living with Melissa and Lian. It is going to be so much fun. When we are just hanging out, it’s just going to be really fun and awkwardly entertaining. I will be cooking which is going to be wonderful! And having my own room will be so great.
Oh, so roommate this year. Ugh! I am so sick of her. She gets these stupid reasons not to talk to me. For example: snoring. Yes, I snore, and openly admit it, and yet, she can't get over it, and now she starts complaining to our other suite mates. It’s just so wrong. If she does make it on America's Next Top Model, she is going to be a Jeda, Dominique, Lisa, or any of the other ones that were really annoying and are going to be hated by all the girls. (Yes, she is really skinny and taller than me; I am just under six feet). At least we will know that if she does make it, she will not be shy or uncomfortable with her height (Sara, I want to say season 7...?).
That’s what is going on with my life. CSU Chico. Go Wildcats!