4.18.08

So I guess yesterday was better than the rest of this past week. Actually, that's probably because it was Friday. I decided not to go down to Davis until later, because, honestly, the only reason I am going down is to switch cars with my parents, give them a few things in my room that I do not need, and to finally get my Christmas present (a set of speakers for my iPod, I am really excited). I knew I was going to be too tired for the Grad, plus I wanted to spend more time with Alex (bf), and and we are doing so much better now.
So I stared to apologise to the people that I have wronged, but I am still not sure who all it is. Talked to Ashley, wow, that was awkward and difficult, because she didn't really tell me what was bugging her, other than the whole ex-boyfriend thing that happened a long time ago. So way back in the day, when they were still dating, I asked said guy to come eat with us at Pluto's, since no one else thought of it, including his girlfriend.... wa wa waaaa. Anyways, apparently asking him (even though he couldn't come) made her mad. I am sorry, I become closer friends faster with guys, especially if at the time I know they are not interested in me. Then I find it easier to trust them because I know they are not looking for a certain something. I think I am going to 'scream' through a text, and see what he says, because the other is there". Also, tried to talk to this one guy that I always seem to get in arguments with. Ok, I do admit that apologising through a text was a not good at all, but it was either trying to sound nice and calm in a text rather than start screaming at him, which is what would have happened. I won't make that mistake again. But jeez, are you serious? I am starting to realize that he is just not worth my time. I think the best way to describe our relationship is, "we just hang out with each other because the other is there." We live on the same floor, right diagonal to each other. I even think he added me before he met me... creepy, but it is Josh, and everyone who meets him, their first impression is always the same: "Is he gay?" and I say "I am not sure". Even though he is always like girls girls girls girls girls, all the time, I don't know. He does act strange, but that could be him just being extremely metro.
Oh, one last exciting thing. I finally finished my song. I'll give you a sample: Here is the chorus.
The song is called "Your Mystery"

My suspicions, won’t take You away from me
My inhibitions, they fall like the weight from a stone
You lead my heart away from that ever-evil fool
Somehow this, my faith still shines like a diamond to You

Oh, how it deepens
Oh, how it deepens

Your mystery
Keeps me keeping on
Your mystery


OK, so I gave you more than just the Chorus, but that is is the first verse, after my oh so sweet introduction on the piano. I just feel like it sounds like a song I know, but then again, most music tends to sound the same.