7.6.08

I know I may be sounding emo, but I feel abandoned. Its strange to feel like I am all alone yet I have family and a job to keep me company. Maybe working is too much for me right now and I need to ask my manger to cut back my hours, I don't know. My mom said that I look angry and sad at the same time, and something about spending more time with her, but I know it is useless. I am not the same person anymore. I just feel angry all the time, yet I am crying as I write this. I don't even remember the last time I felt 100% happy. I know I have, I just need to find out how to get back there, to rewind while still going forward with my life. I just wish it was easier to be like the old me.