5.16.08

So Alex and I are officially back together, for now. I don't think it is going to last too long. I hope he wasn't just using me as a free meal and ride (because I legally cannot drink, nor do I like to), on his birthday. I understand that since it is his 21rst, he is supposed to get so drunk he doesn't remember a thing, but your not the one that has to deal with him in a car. I hate it when he is drunk, I don't enjoy hanging out with him at all. It's like babysitting a five year old, who swears, and is the worst back seat driver saying, "Stop..... Go" at every single stop sign and stop light. Plus then he gets so handsy in public, and I have always had this thing with PDA. I personally cannot do it, I feel weird, and I never want to be "that girl". Whenever I see a couple doing it I feel weirded out looking and seeing them. He also assumed since it was his birthday that his "real" gift was..... well you know. And I was like, hello! We were just broken up. And the gift I gave him I thought was really nice. PG of course, but I don't care. Just because its your birthday doesn't mean I am going to do it. Plus him being drunk when he was trying to was just not pleasant, even kissing him was not pleasant. He reeked of alcohol, and this was before he even went out to the bars. Tonight he is doing this thing called a bar crawl where literally you are crawling to each bar because you are so drunk. I hope he doesn't call me to hang out, and I know that is horrible, but I just don't feel like dealing with him.
Oh, on a lighter note, I made it onto the Servant Team with IVCF. I am so excited. I really feel like this is right for me, that this is the way I should be going, getting my song finished, and just learning more. I am so excited. Plus when I tell my uncle, he will be so proud. At least I know there will be at least two people who support me in this. Both of which are my uncle's. Uncle Ralph and Uncle Dave. Both on my fathers' side. I don't think my dad likes the idea anymore. My mom has been against it the whole time because she thinks that the religious people are going to brainwash me and she is going to loose her "left wing liberal daughter". I wish she would just understand that this makes me happy, and its not dangerous or anything like that. That will probably be my hardest obstacle for me to get over next year.
Oh, also I was able to book brookie's ticket for her to come out to California. I am so excited, I don't think you know. I haven't seen her since she helped me move in 9 months ago. I really can't wait. I wish it was just closer so that I can hang out with her again.