Sleepless nights

I so need sleep right now. I know, college students can function on three hours of sleep and such. And its not like I have anything besides school to do tomorrow, its just that it is 1:21, and I am still awake. I don't understand why! I just want to go to sleep, I don't have anything to do right now, except complain on my blog. I almost want to just try and take something to make me fall asleep, but I do not own anything that would help accomplish that and let me be human in the morning. I don't understand why this is going on. I don't need to pray over anything, the Holy Spirit is not here right now telling me to pray about something. I have just been lying here thinking of nothing, because when I think of something it keeps me awake. Nothing is so much better, makes my thoughts go away. I am probably not making all that much sense right now. And that's ok, because it is 1:24 now. Why? Why? Why? Why?
I am so sick and tired of so many things. Why do guys never give you even signals. Women are complicated? Ya right, men are so much more complicated. When you get us a gift, make it shiny, cute/fluffy, smells good, or tastes amazing, and we will be happy, except for the few out there who tell you not to get it, even though they might still cherish the thought. You guys, we give you a tie, and you think we are saying your wardrobe needs to be adjusted. We give you a movie that you ask for, and a month later when you go to visit them, you find it still in the plastic case with it around it. You didn't even open it you jerk. At least when your front them, they don't mess much around than... I asked this guy out, straight up, didn't dilly dally into it, just did it, and he said "I'm not in a position in which I would feel comfortable to date anyone, so I will have to decline, sorry..." WTF does that mean??? Will anyone answer me that question. I know he was trying to be nice and decline me in a nice way, but what the hell does it mean?
I am glad that I didn't date him because now I see why it would have not worked out. More than likely he is a virgin, and is the son of pastor, so, he will probably stay that way till he is married, and I am not, so.... awkward situations would come up, because honestly, we women have needs similar to the sexual active men that have needs. And the whole thing about women being more picky, I am the exact opposite. I am just so annoyed with being alone. I want to be with someone, emotionally and physically. I just want to be able to lay next to someone, cuddle, and just relax together before going to sleep. Why can't I seem to get that here?
It seems that all the guys here just want the silly drunk girls that can barely stand after a long night of partying. More than likely they pass out during sex, and than you have to deal with them in the morning not know what the hell happened, and be there as they are freaking out.
I was that girl a few weekends ago. I went up to Humboldt State for a pep band game. Lets just say after the game, I drank with the Humboldt people more than I have ever drank in the cumulative of the last year. All I know is now the guys from my school have a drunken love hook-up song dedicated to me, and the new flashes we do to it is the pelvic thrust. I don't believe I had sex, cause I think I would have felt something, unless he was really small. And the only thing I remember from that night is that it was really really cold, and that I needed to have two people around me to keep me from freezing, cause they wouldn't turn on their heater.... It was pretty annoying... And the next morning, awkward stares from said guy (might I add, not all that good looking in the morning, but I probably looked worse, cause of my sleeping arrangements). But despite the memory lapse, I felt better in the relational department for a little while, till tonight.
I like three guys. One is the one I asked out, I can't help it, I have to be around him all the time. I like this other guy, kind of, I brought him soup the other day because he wasn't feeling well, and I thought that would help to show that I have feeling for him, and alas, nothing happened. And the third guy, I am not really sure about. I hang out with him once in a while, and when we were having the game/movie party/night, I asked if anyone needed a back massage, because he was helping out his roommate with his leg, and he immediately raised his hand. I thought that might trigger something, but again, no.
Guys are so fickle. Arg. I am done, I might actually be tired now. Yay!